Monday, September 28, 2009

Sleep Deprived Ramblings

That post about getting lots of sleep? I must have jinxed it by posting that because it has not returned! Last night I got 2 and 1/2 hours of sleep. I drank coffee today to deal with it and those of you who know me know I NEVER drink coffee! It helps a little bit, but not much. I'm scared for when I have to add working back into this crazy equation!
Last week we went on a little vacation to Lake Tahoe, we had planned to go to Oklahoma City and show Erik to family but because of the blood clots in my lungs the Dr. said I couldn't travel that far.....I thought he was a bit crazy until we were driving up the mountains into Lake Tahoe when I realized I was having a very hard time breathing and it was then that I was grateful that we hadn't gone on a long trip. It took me a few hours to get used to the altitude and then I was OK.

He only sleeps in this so it had to be packed!
Packing for this trip was a new adventure in parenting. Babies need alot of stuff!! I usually take two bags, one for my shoes and one for my clothes. This trip required baby stuff so Mike and I had to SHARE (and that's hard for a girl) a bag. I had to choose carefully what I would wear for our 4 day trip and there was no excess allowed. It really taught me that I usually pack too damn much! We even had room in the bag for a few toys!
We stayed at the Marriott Timber Lodge which I HIGHLY recommend. The rooms are little one bedroom apartments and it really made a difference to have our own kitchen, living room and bedroom. I seriously enjoyed the hot tub which I sat in twice a day making up for the 9 months I never sat in one at all!! We even took Erik on his first trip to the pool which he hated. You can see the video of it here. I'm not thrilled to have my big self on video for all the world to see - but Mike wouldn't get in so a Mama's got to do what a Mama's got to do!

My first suit
Mike said he had a new found respect for how much I get up every night. It was nice to have him there to run and get bottles and pacifiers.
It was a nice little vacation - Erik traveled in the car very well for such a long trip. He even went to Reno with us where we were promptly asked to leave a couple casino's because of him. We were just making our way through the casino to the diner for lunch (with a very short stop at a couple slot machines). You aren't allowed to do that. I can remember when I was little going on vacation with my parents to Vegas and my Dad sitting us at a bar in some casino, ordering Shirley Temples all around while he and Mom played the slots - and I will never forgot the look on his face when Casino security asked if he had 5,000 and he said why? 1,000 for each child under 21 and there the 5 of us sat! We were quickly ushered out of there....nice to know things haven't changed.



Next month we look forward to spending a few days at the Beach House with my Dad and introducing this little boy to his Great Grandmother who turned 96 this week!

The baby is growing quickly - he smiles and coos now but has a very bad case of colic so definitely has his crying moments. It breaks my heart to see his little tummy hurting and there is nothing I can do about it except hold him. Which is all he wants. All in all he's the new love of my life (Mike I still adore you too!), it amazes me how anyone could get mad at an infant. Even last night when he didn't go to sleep until midnight and was awake at 2:30 for the rest of the day I still could do nothing but cover him in kisses and just hold him. He is our little miracle and we feel grateful for him every day. Which reminds me - the night before last when I actually got 3 hours of sleep I dreamed that we were having a family reunion and there was a children's table set up with art's and crafts and all my nieces and nephews were there having a grand time creating things and I noticed my Maternal grandmother (who passed away when I was about 23) sitting at the end of the table watching the children. But no one was interacting with her - and even though I could see her I knew she was only there in spirit. I even asked "Grandma can anyone else see you?" and she said No. When I asked what she was doing she said she was just watching her great grandchildren and she was so proud to see them all. It really touched my heart and I woke up so grateful that I had her for a few years and knowing that she still watches over us, especially my child made me feel very happy. When I was trying for so many years I used to pray to my Grandma to find and send me a child....I think this dream was letting me know that she heard those many prayers and followed through!
Life is good - now if I could just figure out how to get back to singing with my chorus that I am missing so much without it costing a fortune life would be perfect. Someday I'll sing with them again - for now I will just have to be satisfied with watching them from the audience and cheering them on!
Fall arrived today in that blustery way that fall arrives and I love it! There is nothing more cozy than a windy fall day and a bald baby to hold!

Becky

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