Moving

This baby only moves for the Doctor, I keep reading all the books and all the websites who say I should clearly be feeling the baby move by 20 weeks (I'm almost 22 weeks), yet the Doctor says oh you won't feel anything until 26 weeks and it's not important until 28 weeks.
WHAT?? So either the books are wrong or the Doctor is. I keep waiting to feel him, I keep hoping and wishing him to kick me really hard so I know he's still alive and growing.
On a good note I am still 3 pounds under what I started this pregnancy at (and no I'm not going to tell you what that was so don't even ask). Which means on Wednesday I will be beginning my 6th month and I still haven't gained ANYTHING! Woo Hoo!!!.....well I guess I did gain something, just years and years before I was pregnant. I do notice a change in my body now. My boobs are finally getting bigger, just a teeny tiny bit but they are growing!! My stomach is poking out just above my belly button where it never did before and there it is hard as a rock, I can only assume that's my uterus holding that baby in!
I'm finally getting over the pneumonia I had and now barely cough at all!! Man, that was a bad three weeks and I am glad it's on it's way out. Now, if I could just get over this strong aversion I'm having to meat things would be OK! I made Tri-Tip for dinner, could barely cut it without getting sick. Mike enjoyed it, I had a salad.
It's Mike's birthday on the 6th and he will be 44, so everyone send him an e-mail teasing him about it.
Becky

Halfway done!

I had my halfway ultrasound today and everything looked perfect!! I'm still 4 pounds less than what I started this pregnancy at...woo hoo!!!
The ultrasound tech said that he looked perfect - he kept flashing that little penis at us all morning. She said he was measuring 5 days older then what they had originally anticipated so the due date has been moved from Aug. 10th to Aug. 7th.
Maguire's have large babies so Mom thinks they will likely move it up again...funny thing about the date. Mom was due with me on Aug. 10th. They moved her to Aug. 7th, then Aug. 4th and I showed up on the 31st of July.....so who knows!
If he's going to come early then he might as well show up on the 30th of July so I can say I was 39 when I had him, otherwise I will be 40!!
So...looks like we have about 144 days to go......we have got the crib up, the safari theme going on and I even found safari animals with GLITTER!! Mike says it's the only glitter I'm allowed, I like glitter.
Becky

Emotions and Anxiety

I know crazy emotions go along with being pregnant, I do. However, in the moment that it happens I forget. For example - If my boss asks me to do something / change something then I think she doesn't like me and I'm going to get fired. There is NO reality in this at all - however, when that moment is with me I'm paralysed with the anxiety that I am going to lose my job and not be able to provide for my child.
Perhaps it's the hormones combined with the continuous rainy days that are making me crazy, or perhaps its the feeling I feel as I watch parents look helpless as their toddler screams their way through the grocery store.
I expected these emotions much earlier - like in the first tri-mester, they seemed to have saved themselves all up for now!
So....if I'm short, mean or just plain bitchy (sorry Mikey!) to you then please give me a pregnant pass and I will do my best to be nice......but right now, everything (and everyone) seems to get on my nerves.
My lovely friend Bonnie who is an amazing photographer offered to photograph my blossoming belly......I didn't mean too, but I laughed at her and reminded her that the belly is what I usually try to HIDE in all photo's, it's not something I want to showcase. She said there was "creative" ways to showcase it with fabric and such. I had to nicely pass on that offer - skinny girls look lovely and pregnant, thick girls like me just look like they had too much lunch.
I'm waiting for my boobs to grow and distract people from my stomach.....I think Mike's hoping for that too. I hope he "hopes" really hard, so far....nada!